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Tag Archives: therapy
I have once again come to a place where I realize that I’m trying to do too much. Â I’m over committing myself in excess of my resources of time and energy. Â I’m fucking exhausted many days, mostly work days. Â I’m … Continue reading
I can look back on my life now and see that through various relationships and traumatic events, I’ve become a collection of splintered selves, personality shards held together by force of habit and stubbornness, but with less and less connection … Continue reading
For those of you following along from home, here’s an update on my state of mind and emotions. Â Early last week, I was having a prolonged panic/anxiety attack. Â Hence the password protected posts. Â I was in a very bad place, … Continue reading
I don’t know why I thought it would be easy to dive deep with therapy. Â I guess my internal shielding mechanisms have been functioning so well that I had no idea how much crap I had to work on. Â Turns … Continue reading
I’ve been feeling a new kind of disconnect or distance internally between myself and the current events that have been so triggering of late. Â I’ve been looking at that disconnection to understand it and find out if it’s a good … Continue reading
Taking a walk today, in the cloudy sunshine, I felt the familiar pangs of grief starting up again and I looked onward to see who was raising the issue this time. Â This is what I’ve been learning to do, to … Continue reading
Getting physical feels good emotionally and mentally. Â As much as I know that, I keep forgetting to actually get my body in motion when I’m feeling like shit. Any movement is helpful, walking, bike riding, stretching (stretching and breathing are … Continue reading
I’ve been struggling in the space between holding on and letting go. Not wanting to let go of what I used to have and also knowing I have to, that if I continue to hang on to this heavy grief … Continue reading
Another pause, another chance to catch my breath, another few days wondering when the next shoe will fall. Â I’ve had a hard couple of weeks, the lows like black holes I could barely escape even if I had all my … Continue reading