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Tag Archives: therapy
Learning to Say ‘No’
I have once again come to a place where I realize that I’m trying to do too much. Â I’m over committing myself in excess of my resources of time and energy. Â I’m fucking exhausted many days, mostly work days. Â I’m … Continue reading
Dis-Integration… and the Process of Becoming Whole
I can look back on my life now and see that through various relationships and traumatic events, I’ve become a collection of splintered selves, personality shards held together by force of habit and stubbornness, but with less and less connection … Continue reading
It Got Better
For those of you following along from home, here’s an update on my state of mind and emotions. Â Early last week, I was having a prolonged panic/anxiety attack. Â Hence the password protected posts. Â I was in a very bad place, … Continue reading
Posted in finding me, I'm taking the wheel, relationships, slices of life, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, Roxy, therapy, TherapyLand
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Where I am Today
I don’t know why I thought it would be easy to dive deep with therapy. Â I guess my internal shielding mechanisms have been functioning so well that I had no idea how much crap I had to work on. Â Turns … Continue reading
Posted in relationships, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, poly is hard, Roxy, therapy, TherapyLand
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Dis-Connecting
I’ve been feeling a new kind of disconnect or distance internally between myself and the current events that have been so triggering of late. Â I’ve been looking at that disconnection to understand it and find out if it’s a good … Continue reading
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Tagged depression, friends, hard emotions, introspection, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, poly is hard, Roxy, therapy
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My Idealistic Heart
Taking a walk today, in the cloudy sunshine, I felt the familiar pangs of grief starting up again and I looked onward to see who was raising the issue this time. Â This is what I’ve been learning to do, to … Continue reading
Posted in finding me, my love, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged desire, hope, idealistic heart, love, therapy
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And Another Thing… Keep Moving!
Getting physical feels good emotionally and mentally. Â As much as I know that, I keep forgetting to actually get my body in motion when I’m feeling like shit. Any movement is helpful, walking, bike riding, stretching (stretching and breathing are … Continue reading
Letting Go, Stopping the Endless Loop of Loss
I’ve been struggling in the space between holding on and letting go. Not wanting to let go of what I used to have and also knowing I have to, that if I continue to hang on to this heavy grief … Continue reading
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Tagged hard emotions, Kyle and Roxy, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, poly is hard, Roxy, therapy
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Pausing Again, Breathing a Little More Deeply
Another pause, another chance to catch my breath, another few days wondering when the next shoe will fall. Â I’ve had a hard couple of weeks, the lows like black holes I could barely escape even if I had all my … Continue reading
Posted in finding me, it gets better, slices of life, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, introspection, rock in the river, therapy
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Happy (?) Friday
“My head is a bed of nails, comfortable for monsters, but beauty won’t stay” I posted that to one of my Facebook pages today, being so full of uncomfortable, negative thoughts and feelings that I knew I’d burst if I … Continue reading
Posted in The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged depression, friends, hard emotions, Mrs. Kyle, Roxy, therapy
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