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Tag Archives: poly is hard
Dis-Connecting
I’ve been feeling a new kind of disconnect or distance internally between myself and the current events that have been so triggering of late. Â I’ve been looking at that disconnection to understand it and find out if it’s a good … Continue reading
Posted in relationships, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged depression, friends, hard emotions, introspection, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, poly is hard, Roxy, therapy
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Letting Go, Stopping the Endless Loop of Loss
I’ve been struggling in the space between holding on and letting go. Not wanting to let go of what I used to have and also knowing I have to, that if I continue to hang on to this heavy grief … Continue reading
Posted in relationships, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, Kyle and Roxy, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, poly is hard, Roxy, therapy
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Pushing Myself
I was thinking last night that in all this opening that I’m doing – opening my mind, my heart, being open to situations that have made me uncomfortable, being vulnerable – I need to be aware of pushing too far, … Continue reading
Posted in finding me, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged poly is hard, relationships, therapy
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Healing Conversation
My wife and I had a conversation the other night, a ground-breaking, amazing conversation. Â I ended up staying up late, which I paid for the next day in mindless exhaustion, but I’m glad we did it. Â It started with her … Continue reading
I went walking
Today I went for a walk And I wanted to keep walking Walking away from cubicles and artificial light and artificial drama Away from people and machines Away from connection and responsibility Away from emotions. I was walking along, crying, … Continue reading
Posted in inner voice, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, introspection, poly is hard, therapy
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A Mother of a Day
The cracks have turned into jagged breaks and I’m ooozing out all over. Â All the thoughts, feelings, impulses… messy, messy, messy… that I’ve been holding down for so long, are bursting out in an ugly tangle. Â I guess that’s what … Continue reading
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Tagged depression, friends, hard emotions, introvert vs. extrovert, poly is hard, Roxy, therapy
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Posted in relationships, slices of life, The Therapy Chronicles, tired of this shit
Tagged hard emotions, introspection, poly is hard, polyamorous, relationships
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Song Dedication
I heard a new song today, new to me anyway, on a new album newly imported into my iPod. It made me think of her, of easier times, happier times, before reality crashed our party. Â The singer was making promises, … Continue reading
My Knight Fantasy
I posted a fantasy yesterday about a knight patiently waiting for a chance to serve his sovereign. Â It is at once how I feel in my heart of hearts and also not truthful accounting of reality. The truth is, I’m … Continue reading
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Tagged love wins again, poly is hard, polyamory, relationships, Roxy, tarnished knight
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