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Tag Archives: introspection
Trans*date 2014.5.17, Moving to a New Place
As is my habit, I try to translate my insides to the outside world through words. Â Analogies play a big part in that translation. Â I was having a conversation with a friend, a transguy who is younger than I by … Continue reading
Trans*date, 2014.5.13, Making Appointments
I have decided that I’m definitely going to be taking testosterone, now much and how soon are not decided yet. Â I have made an appointment to talk to my primary health care provider, my butch NP, about getting started. Â That’s … Continue reading
Posted in genderqueer, Genderqueer Transition, This Genderqueer LIfe, transgender
Tagged gender, genderqueer, introspection, transgender, transition mission
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It Hits Me At Odd Moments
I’ve been thinking a lot about transition, my transition, the one I’m designing specifically for myself. Â I’ve been thinking about the changes that will result from taking T, looking through the list as though memorizing it will magically give me … Continue reading
Posted in Coming Out Genderqueer, finding me, gender, genderqueer, transgender
Tagged gender, genderqueer, genderqueer transition, introspection, transgender
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Decisions, Decisions
Have you ever done that thing where you believe you’ve been considering and processing and evaluating something for a long time and then you realize that, no, you really weren’t? That’s where I am right now. Â And I know the … Continue reading
Posted in exploring gender, gender, gender non-conforming, genderqueer, non-conforming gender presentation, This Genderqueer LIfe, transgender
Tagged gender, gender non-conforming, genderqueer, identity, introspection, transgender
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Two Poems, Unfinished
untitled, unfinished sometimes it hits me just like that like breath caught in my throat like one last step I don’t see so it catches me by surprise brings me to my knees those hours, those moments each of them … Continue reading
Posted in exploring gender, genderqueer, my love, poetry
Tagged genderqueer, heartache, introspection, love beyond time, poetry
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Imagining Myself Whole
This may end up being a bit rambly, so bear with me if you can. I had a therapy session recently. Â We talked about my transition work which is all about coming out in my professional life these days. Â We … Continue reading
“What is the worst that could happen?”
I’ve realized something recently, something about the way I handle my true truths and the way I reveal or hide them from others. Â I’ve had a hard time opening up to some people in my life about what I really … Continue reading
Posted in butch/trans/genderqueer, exploring gender, finding me, gender, gender non-conforming, genderqueer, I'm taking the wheel, my genderqueer life, non-conforming gender presentation, The Therapy Chronicles, This Genderqueer LIfe, transgender
Tagged gender, gender non-conforming, genderqueer, identity, introspection, Mrs. Kyle, transgender
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Wishing I Was Better At This
Maybe it’s the hormones, maybe I’m mentally exhausted from NaNoWriMo month and stress at work.  Maybe it’s because I don’t get to see  my girlfriend until after the holidays and that makes it harder to feel generous about the time … Continue reading
Posted in my selves, relationships, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged identity, introspection, poly is hard, polyamorous, relationships
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End of October Update
Tons going on lately… are you ready? Date Number 2 with Ruby! Â We’ve been heating things up over the interwebs and she’s now promising to pounce on me this Saturday. Â YES! Â We’re going to have dinner and drinks at various … Continue reading
Posted in crushes, dating, parenting, Suburban Butch Dad Report, The Novel
Tagged family, friends, introspection, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, parenting, poly is hard, polyamorous, Pretty Lady, relationships, Roxy, Ruby, SexyLadyFriend, Spawn1, Spawn2, suburban butch dad, yoga
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If You Knew Me…
Part of being a ‘public figure’ is that people tend to think they know you better than they actually do. Â While it’s true that I put a lot of my real self into this blog and into my other online … Continue reading