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Tag Archives: hard emotions
Poem for a Lonely Night
I was lonely a thunderstorm stopped by to keep me company throwing jagged light and angry words when I could not voice them cold rain falling through warm air shadows all around but no one to throw them
It Got Better
For those of you following along from home, here’s an update on my state of mind and emotions. Â Early last week, I was having a prolonged panic/anxiety attack. Â Hence the password protected posts. Â I was in a very bad place, … Continue reading
Posted in finding me, I'm taking the wheel, relationships, slices of life, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, Roxy, therapy, TherapyLand
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Where I am Today
I don’t know why I thought it would be easy to dive deep with therapy. Â I guess my internal shielding mechanisms have been functioning so well that I had no idea how much crap I had to work on. Â Turns … Continue reading
Posted in relationships, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, poly is hard, Roxy, therapy, TherapyLand
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Dis-Connecting
I’ve been feeling a new kind of disconnect or distance internally between myself and the current events that have been so triggering of late. Â I’ve been looking at that disconnection to understand it and find out if it’s a good … Continue reading
Posted in relationships, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged depression, friends, hard emotions, introspection, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, poly is hard, Roxy, therapy
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Letting Go, Stopping the Endless Loop of Loss
I’ve been struggling in the space between holding on and letting go. Not wanting to let go of what I used to have and also knowing I have to, that if I continue to hang on to this heavy grief … Continue reading
Posted in relationships, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, Kyle and Roxy, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, poly is hard, Roxy, therapy
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Pausing Again, Breathing a Little More Deeply
Another pause, another chance to catch my breath, another few days wondering when the next shoe will fall. Â I’ve had a hard couple of weeks, the lows like black holes I could barely escape even if I had all my … Continue reading
Posted in finding me, it gets better, slices of life, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, introspection, rock in the river, therapy
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Happy (?) Friday
“My head is a bed of nails, comfortable for monsters, but beauty won’t stay” I posted that to one of my Facebook pages today, being so full of uncomfortable, negative thoughts and feelings that I knew I’d burst if I … Continue reading
Posted in The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged depression, friends, hard emotions, Mrs. Kyle, Roxy, therapy
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A Pause
Yesterday was remarkable because of what didn’t happen: Â no emotional shitstorms, no panic attacks. Â I woke up with the same anxious belly I’ve become accustomed to, worried that I’d step on a mine somewhere during the day and blow up. … Continue reading
String of Increasingly Vicious Curse Words
Today is another angry day, stupid, self-damaging, fucked up, shitty anger. Â Where it started almost doesn’t matter, except it’s an incident I’d rather not repeat and in order to make that happen I have to get the cooperation of my … Continue reading
I went walking
Today I went for a walk And I wanted to keep walking Walking away from cubicles and artificial light and artificial drama Away from people and machines Away from connection and responsibility Away from emotions. I was walking along, crying, … Continue reading
Posted in inner voice, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, introspection, poly is hard, therapy
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