Category Archives: The Therapy Chronicles

Letting Go, Stopping the Endless Loop of Loss

Posted on June 13, 2013 by Kyle

I’ve been struggling in the space between holding on and letting go. Not wanting to let go of what I used to have and also knowing I have to, that if I continue to hang on to this heavy grief … Continue reading →

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Pausing Again, Breathing a Little More Deeply

Posted on June 11, 2013 by Kyle

Another pause, another chance to catch my breath, another few days wondering when the next shoe will fall.  I’ve had a hard couple of weeks, the lows like black holes I could barely escape even if I had all my … Continue reading →

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Happy (?) Friday

Posted on June 7, 2013 by Kyle

“My head is a bed of nails, comfortable for monsters, but beauty won’t stay” I posted that to one of my Facebook pages today, being so full of uncomfortable, negative thoughts and feelings that I knew I’d burst if I … Continue reading →

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The Eighth Grade Knight Stands Alone

Posted on June 5, 2013 by Kyle

When I was in eighth grade, I became a knight.  I learned how to battle evil princesses, cruel princes and dragons of many shapes and sizes.  I learned how to use the tools of battle, learned how to make armor … Continue reading →

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A Pause

Posted on May 30, 2013 by Kyle

Yesterday was remarkable because of what didn’t happen:  no emotional shitstorms, no panic attacks.  I woke up with the same anxious belly I’ve become accustomed to, worried that I’d step on a mine somewhere during the day and blow up. … Continue reading →

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String of Increasingly Vicious Curse Words

Posted on May 27, 2013 by Kyle

Today is another angry day, stupid, self-damaging, fucked up, shitty anger.  Where it started almost doesn’t matter, except it’s an incident I’d rather not repeat and in order to make that happen I have to get the cooperation of my … Continue reading →

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Pushing Myself

Posted on May 26, 2013 by Kyle

I was thinking last night that in all this opening that I’m doing – opening my mind, my heart, being open to situations that have made me uncomfortable, being vulnerable – I need to be aware of pushing too far, … Continue reading →

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Healing Conversation

Posted on May 24, 2013 by Kyle

My wife and I had a conversation the other night, a ground-breaking, amazing conversation.  I ended up staying up late, which I paid for the next day in mindless exhaustion, but I’m glad we did it.  It started with her … Continue reading →

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Touch

Posted on May 18, 2013 by Kyle

I had the most amazing massage the other night, and not a relaxation massage, this was a therapeutic massage which means I am walking around with sore spots all over from spots not so tenderly administered to. My massage guy … Continue reading →

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I went walking

Posted on May 17, 2013 by Kyle

Today I went for a walk And I wanted to keep walking Walking away from cubicles and artificial light and artificial drama Away from people and machines Away from connection and responsibility Away from emotions. I was walking along, crying, … Continue reading →

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