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Category Archives: The Therapy Chronicles
Imagining Myself Whole
This may end up being a bit rambly, so bear with me if you can. I had a therapy session recently. Â We talked about my transition work which is all about coming out in my professional life these days. Â We … Continue reading
“What is the worst that could happen?”
I’ve realized something recently, something about the way I handle my true truths and the way I reveal or hide them from others. Â I’ve had a hard time opening up to some people in my life about what I really … Continue reading
Posted in butch/trans/genderqueer, exploring gender, finding me, gender, gender non-conforming, genderqueer, I'm taking the wheel, my genderqueer life, non-conforming gender presentation, The Therapy Chronicles, This Genderqueer LIfe, transgender
Tagged gender, gender non-conforming, genderqueer, identity, introspection, Mrs. Kyle, transgender
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Wishing I Was Better At This
Maybe it’s the hormones, maybe I’m mentally exhausted from NaNoWriMo month and stress at work.  Maybe it’s because I don’t get to see  my girlfriend until after the holidays and that makes it harder to feel generous about the time … Continue reading
Posted in my selves, relationships, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged identity, introspection, poly is hard, polyamorous, relationships
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Writing the Novel, Writing my Life
When I started writing my novel, I saw it as a story about Buddy, a character similar to myself, sharing some of my experiences but having some that I’d never experienced. Â I knew that writing the bits I hadn’t lived … Continue reading
Posted in about writing, The Novel, The Therapy Chronicles, writing
Tagged Buddy, Guys Like Us, introspection, writing
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Dis-Integration… and the Process of Becoming Whole
I can look back on my life now and see that through various relationships and traumatic events, I’ve become a collection of splintered selves, personality shards held together by force of habit and stubbornness, but with less and less connection … Continue reading
It Got Better
For those of you following along from home, here’s an update on my state of mind and emotions. Â Early last week, I was having a prolonged panic/anxiety attack. Â Hence the password protected posts. Â I was in a very bad place, … Continue reading
Posted in finding me, I'm taking the wheel, relationships, slices of life, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, Roxy, therapy, TherapyLand
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Where I am Today
I don’t know why I thought it would be easy to dive deep with therapy. Â I guess my internal shielding mechanisms have been functioning so well that I had no idea how much crap I had to work on. Â Turns … Continue reading
Posted in relationships, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, poly is hard, Roxy, therapy, TherapyLand
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Dis-Connecting
I’ve been feeling a new kind of disconnect or distance internally between myself and the current events that have been so triggering of late. Â I’ve been looking at that disconnection to understand it and find out if it’s a good … Continue reading
Posted in relationships, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged depression, friends, hard emotions, introspection, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, poly is hard, Roxy, therapy
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My Idealistic Heart
Taking a walk today, in the cloudy sunshine, I felt the familiar pangs of grief starting up again and I looked onward to see who was raising the issue this time. Â This is what I’ve been learning to do, to … Continue reading
Posted in finding me, my love, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged desire, hope, idealistic heart, love, therapy
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And Another Thing… Keep Moving!
Getting physical feels good emotionally and mentally. Â As much as I know that, I keep forgetting to actually get my body in motion when I’m feeling like shit. Any movement is helpful, walking, bike riding, stretching (stretching and breathing are … Continue reading