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Category Archives: The Therapy Chronicles
Imagining Myself Whole
This may end up being a bit rambly, so bear with me if you can. I had a therapy session recently. We talked about my transition work which is all about coming out in my professional life these days. We … Continue reading
“What is the worst that could happen?”
I’ve realized something recently, something about the way I handle my true truths and the way I reveal or hide them from others. I’ve had a hard time opening up to some people in my life about what I really … Continue reading
Posted in butch/trans/genderqueer, exploring gender, finding me, gender, gender non-conforming, genderqueer, I'm taking the wheel, my genderqueer life, non-conforming gender presentation, The Therapy Chronicles, This Genderqueer LIfe, transgender
Tagged gender, gender non-conforming, genderqueer, identity, introspection, Mrs. Kyle, transgender
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Wishing I Was Better At This
Maybe it’s the hormones, maybe I’m mentally exhausted from NaNoWriMo month and stress at work. Maybe it’s because I don’t get to see my girlfriend until after the holidays and that makes it harder to feel generous about the time … Continue reading
Posted in my selves, relationships, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged identity, introspection, poly is hard, polyamorous, relationships
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Writing the Novel, Writing my Life
When I started writing my novel, I saw it as a story about Buddy, a character similar to myself, sharing some of my experiences but having some that I’d never experienced. I knew that writing the bits I hadn’t lived … Continue reading
Posted in about writing, The Novel, The Therapy Chronicles, writing
Tagged Buddy, Guys Like Us, introspection, writing
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Dis-Integration… and the Process of Becoming Whole
I can look back on my life now and see that through various relationships and traumatic events, I’ve become a collection of splintered selves, personality shards held together by force of habit and stubbornness, but with less and less connection … Continue reading
It Got Better
For those of you following along from home, here’s an update on my state of mind and emotions. Early last week, I was having a prolonged panic/anxiety attack. Hence the password protected posts. I was in a very bad place, … Continue reading
Posted in finding me, I'm taking the wheel, relationships, slices of life, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, Roxy, therapy, TherapyLand
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Where I am Today
I don’t know why I thought it would be easy to dive deep with therapy. I guess my internal shielding mechanisms have been functioning so well that I had no idea how much crap I had to work on. Turns … Continue reading
Posted in relationships, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, poly is hard, Roxy, therapy, TherapyLand
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Dis-Connecting
I’ve been feeling a new kind of disconnect or distance internally between myself and the current events that have been so triggering of late. I’ve been looking at that disconnection to understand it and find out if it’s a good … Continue reading
Posted in relationships, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged depression, friends, hard emotions, introspection, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, poly is hard, Roxy, therapy
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My Idealistic Heart
Taking a walk today, in the cloudy sunshine, I felt the familiar pangs of grief starting up again and I looked onward to see who was raising the issue this time. This is what I’ve been learning to do, to … Continue reading
Posted in finding me, my love, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged desire, hope, idealistic heart, love, therapy
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And Another Thing… Keep Moving!
Getting physical feels good emotionally and mentally. As much as I know that, I keep forgetting to actually get my body in motion when I’m feeling like shit. Any movement is helpful, walking, bike riding, stretching (stretching and breathing are … Continue reading