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Category Archives: finding me
“What is the worst that could happen?”
I’ve realized something recently, something about the way I handle my true truths and the way I reveal or hide them from others. Â I’ve had a hard time opening up to some people in my life about what I really … Continue reading
Posted in butch/trans/genderqueer, exploring gender, finding me, gender, gender non-conforming, genderqueer, I'm taking the wheel, my genderqueer life, non-conforming gender presentation, The Therapy Chronicles, This Genderqueer LIfe, transgender
Tagged gender, gender non-conforming, genderqueer, identity, introspection, Mrs. Kyle, transgender
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If You Knew Me…
Part of being a ‘public figure’ is that people tend to think they know you better than they actually do. Â While it’s true that I put a lot of my real self into this blog and into my other online … Continue reading
#GOconf2013, My Personal Gender Odyssey
One difference for me between this year’s Gender Odyssey conference and last year’s was that I spent a lot less time this year telling the story of my trans narrative. Â Part of that is due to the workshops I attended, … Continue reading
Posted in butch/trans/genderqueer, exploring gender, finding me, gender, gender non-conforming, genderqueer, non-conforming gender presentation, transgender
Tagged gender, gender non-conforming, Gender Odyssey, genderqueer, identity, transgender
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It Got Better
For those of you following along from home, here’s an update on my state of mind and emotions. Â Early last week, I was having a prolonged panic/anxiety attack. Â Hence the password protected posts. Â I was in a very bad place, … Continue reading
Posted in finding me, I'm taking the wheel, relationships, slices of life, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, Mrs. Kyle, Nick, Roxy, therapy, TherapyLand
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My Idealistic Heart
Taking a walk today, in the cloudy sunshine, I felt the familiar pangs of grief starting up again and I looked onward to see who was raising the issue this time. Â This is what I’ve been learning to do, to … Continue reading
Posted in finding me, my love, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged desire, hope, idealistic heart, love, therapy
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Pausing Again, Breathing a Little More Deeply
Another pause, another chance to catch my breath, another few days wondering when the next shoe will fall. Â I’ve had a hard couple of weeks, the lows like black holes I could barely escape even if I had all my … Continue reading
Posted in finding me, it gets better, slices of life, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged hard emotions, introspection, rock in the river, therapy
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A Pause
Yesterday was remarkable because of what didn’t happen: Â no emotional shitstorms, no panic attacks. Â I woke up with the same anxious belly I’ve become accustomed to, worried that I’d step on a mine somewhere during the day and blow up. … Continue reading
String of Increasingly Vicious Curse Words
Today is another angry day, stupid, self-damaging, fucked up, shitty anger. Â Where it started almost doesn’t matter, except it’s an incident I’d rather not repeat and in order to make that happen I have to get the cooperation of my … Continue reading
Pushing Myself
I was thinking last night that in all this opening that I’m doing – opening my mind, my heart, being open to situations that have made me uncomfortable, being vulnerable – I need to be aware of pushing too far, … Continue reading
Posted in finding me, The Therapy Chronicles
Tagged poly is hard, relationships, therapy
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