I began taking testosterone on June 18th, today is my 176th day on T, almost 6 months.
The small scruffy beard I’ve had since my 30s is filling out and my butch mustache is getting thicker and darker. Â Along my jawline the peach fuzz is now starting to show darker invaders, but they are very far and few still.
I have had a couple of hairs on the center of my chest for years but recently they’ve been joined by others, many others. Â Still sparse and spread out but more and more visible. Â And a bit itchy.
My voice is much lower now than it was before transition. Â The voice log post I recently did illustrates that pretty well. Â And speaking of lower, changes have happened below, too. Â My clit is thickening and when I get turned on, I have a small erection.. small compared to cis male penises but huge compared to my pre-T butch erections. Â Like, whoa.
Emotionally I feel great about transitioning. Â My head is clear, I’m not tormented with questions about whether I should or shouldn’t. Â The farther I go on this path, the better and more right it feels.
Physical transition is underway, but social transition has stalled a bit. Â A friend of mine expressed surprise that I wasn’t using men’s rooms yet. Â I explained that at work I can use a single stall unisex bathroom and other wise I work at home. Â In the evening, when I’m out at bars and such, I haven’t yet felt like I wanted to take the step of switching. Â He’s a trans guy, many years into his transition, and he reassured me that most of the time, guys won’t even pay any attention. Â I know that the real issue is my internal resistance. I guess I just need to decide to cut over and do it.
Of all the steps I’ve taken, that one intimidates me the most.
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