Wow, what a weekend. Â Community, controversy, energy, exhaustion, conversation, adrenaline, hopefulness, affirmation… I’m overwhelmed still, and might be for a few days. Â The sessions were great, the socializing was awesome. Â So much good food, good conversation, catching up with old friends, making new ones.
Last night was hard. Â The conference drop hit hard, but even harder was the leaving-my-lover drop. Â Lots of tears, lots of anger and frustration over the necessity of leaving. Â And this morning, they send me pictures of us, in love, involved, and it helps a lot. Â Seeing Roxy‘s smile, seeing their joy in being with me, that’s what helps me get through the long weeks apart. Â We had a lot of sexy, hot, passionate sex and play. Â We kissed as much as we could, but now I wish we’d kissed more. Â We held hands and walked everywhere, even though that was a risky, dangerous, transgressive thing to do in downtown Oakland. Â We did it together and it felt good.
We danced. Â Danced like we were making love. Â Danced with so much joy, Roxy was floating all night. Â When we’re together, we’re together in such a passionate, unapologetic way, it’s beautiful and powerful and magical and I will never get enough of it.
There is so much I want to tell y’all about the conference and my time with Roxy but for now I need to get through this drop. Â I’m exhausted and full of revelations and new things to incorporate into my life and I miss my lover like an ache that won’t ever stop.
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